Fear sometimes pushes me to failure or disappointment. In this 131 lb-weight-loss journey, I have a new challenge. I have to keep my “what if” doubts and fears at arm’s length, and rely on my God infused-strong, self-controlled commitment close by.
When doubt pushes its way into my heart, the weak and tender places, it can be crushed by fear from my oh so many questions:
What if I allow myself one bite too many?
What if I keep eating chocolate cake and can’t stop?
What if I start loving food more than I love God again?
What if I can’t trust myself around food ever?
What if I can’t stay at my goal weight?
What if I fail you in this weight loss expectation thing?
What if my personal failures cause you to fail too?
What if I stop obeying God in the area of making healthy choices?
Man…I didn’t know that this losing weight gig could be so complicated!
At this point…I have to turn my Titanic-sized-load of worry into many points of resistance, using the negatives to become God’s greatest opportunities. These looming giant-sized questions have no place in my thinking if I am to continue in right obedience of a healthy lifestyle. I must consistently press on towards the goal of making healthy choices each and every day, no matter what. The hard work of resistance grinds on.
The tension of “what if’s” has to continue to push me through to obedience.
So here’s a new question:
Does resistance asks all the wrong questions? And the even bigger shiny question is…
What’s blocking my courage to look at the temptation in the face and grabbing it by the throat and showing it’s who’s boss?
Food holds no power over me anymore. But the fear of going back to my heaviest does.
Is that what you need today? A little more courage to look at your giant temptation? To look at your fears, to kick your fears in the gut and say…
Look…if God is for me, what’s to stop me from using resistance to take the next step of courage?
Resistance keeps knocking repeat on the fear button. Ahem…..
So…this is my call out to the enemy known as failure! Scootch over you looming giants disguised as doubt and weakness that ebb and flow through my thinking, those that call loudly for dominion in my heart!
Don’t let fear’s voice roar to a loud chorus within your soul to keep you from obeying what God is calling you to do. Let your fear be the catalyst to move you to action to obey Him.
My disobedience matters to God. And my knowing the difference between the pros and cons of consequences matters to me. Staying healthy matters to God, and therefore it matters to me too. It’s time to put this fear to rest.
So the next time fear knocks hard with questions and asks:
Do I have what it takes? …Answer back with …”no, but God does”.
Does behaving myself around food matter? “Yes”. It matters.
Because food won’t behave for you. Only God can give you the strength to walk away from the dinner table.
Is God’s strength enough to fight off the biggest piece of Wall-O-China chocolate cake?
….Yes, that’s small potatoes to Him.
If we are living in total dependence on His How’s, we won’t have to succumb to our questions and food-fears.
We can put fear to death, we can put fear to rest, we can bury our fears in His chest. We can, because God can handle them all. And God can handle your questions too. He helps us figure the how’s, the what’s, the when’s along the way of resistance.
So back to that word, how can resistance be a positive? It helps us face the imperfect solutions by embracing God’s perfection. Once we submit our wills to obey His perfect Authority, there really is no resistance now is there?
Janelle’s bio: I am a Christ-follower, one who loves Jesus more than food. A writer and a blogger who likes to skip, fly kites, laugh, and dream God-sized dreams.